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Love was like an Ocean
Christian Bodhi
Category Spirituality    11/2/2002
   

Nature is my teacher, I look at it and feel veneration and also that I am a part of its harmony. It is alive and endlessly deep.

Once, before I realised that being isolated from nature was being isolated from life, I had been trying to go to the limits of logic in an attempt to find the utmost meaning of the world. The more I thought, the more everything began to lose sense, even that which had been clear and definite before. I began to lose my ground, the names where becoming devoid of meaning - only later I learnt that they were only an invocation or getting in touch with certain qualities of nature. When I didn't know what to think, nor which labyrinth of thought to reconquer, I turned my attention to the physical world.

I found myself in the country, it was sunset. I lay on the grass and was indifferent; my mind was tired and felt burn out. There was nothing left to do but take in the scene presented. The deep blue sky, little white clouds and the consciousness of my own body. The night was coming slowly and with it, the silence and peace of twilight. The sky became ever darker and some mysterious feeling arose in me, I was slowly immersed in the flows of nature. The feeling of time disappeared. I was imbued with lightness and freshness, my perception becoming a part of nature. And then, I saw a star just above me. I looked to see if there were more then one, but it alone, the big and bright one, was the first emissary of the night. Perhaps it was a planet, I do not know, I only know that I instantly fell in love with it. All that power which I had invested in thought now turned into the heart and the emotions which played around me. A pure love, that of devotion, overflowed into my body and spirit. There was no distance between us, I simply let the star raise my thoughts to a higher plane and in some wonderful way inspire me and replenish me.

When I stood up, love was everywhere like an ocean - we in turn are fish in that ocean which rather than observing, keep their eyes closed and ask themselves what the wetness is. In the plants, in the stones, in the freedom of the sky, everywhere was love. And suddenly I realised what even now I often forget: everything is penetrated by love and problems do not exist because every being is deep-rooted in love and the purpose of every thing is play. I shared that feeling with the plants and the other beings which I could only sense and in that moment I remembered humanity and I was pervaded by even stronger love, because in that case play has no limit.

We can call reality God, Allah, Krishna, Buddha, Christ, Purusha, Nirvana, Logos or any other divinity, but it is always One. By virtue of our way of observing, this manifested world is not reality. We merely observe, but there are a few who can see. That evening I saw as much as I could, because I invested all my energy, but that was not enough, we need to invest everything every day - thus, slowly and patiently, grows The Bridge to Freedom.

 

 

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